Well, it's still hard to wrap my (jet-lagged) head around it, but here I am back in Canada...after a 4 hour bus ride to the airport, this airport lunch of dol sot bibimbap, and a 10 hour flight I arrived safely in Vancouver, feeling unsure whether I was awake or dreaming or somewhere in between.
On the plane I cried and listened to Snow Patrol, which made me feel even worse. I am now officially living on a continent far away from my boyfriend and as much as I adore Skype, everything will change (and already has changed) so much. It's strange how a person can become such a huge part of yourself, like you're not really two different people at all but two connecting pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. Did I just write that? Sorry ;-)
After a little over a week I'll be flying off again, this time to California. My parents are moving there so the home I'm currently in isn't really my home anymore. I think I've never gone through so many huge life changes all at the same time before, my goodness! After just a few weeks in California I should be off to England to study for a year.
But I wouldn't have it any other way. I think in the past I tended to stay in my comfort zone most of the time and the boredom of that was terrifying. Life is so precious, I don't ever want to limit myself and become stuck in a rut just because of fear. The last few years have been such a happy blur because I finally took big risks and made my own path. Now I can better understand what I want out of life, what makes me happy, and I hope I will always have the courage to keep moving forward and trying new things, even if I have no idea how they will work out.
Anywho...now it's time to just relax, enjoy the sunshine, breathe the fresh ocean air, marvel at all the huge flowers and trees around me, and smile at the gorgeousness of summer. The world feels magical.
Hugs, Lucy! I had no idea you'd been going through so many life changes lately - you've been taking it like a champ, but it's A-ok to cry! Will you be back to Korea to visit anytime soon?
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